wow... it's been so long since i've felt this warm inside... not like i'm warm because i'm sick but the warm and fuzzy feeling... like it's good to be alive... i didn't think that i would be able to feel like this ever again... i mean... i carry a smile from time to time... but who am i kidding... deep inside i'm actually sad and tired of being... just around... like i've given up hope on life... but just this last weekend i met someone that brings a whole new meaning to life... we hardly know each other but we know each other enough... i see something in her that i haven't been able to see in anyone for the longest time... i see a gift of life and joy... we may not ever end up any further then what we are today but for some reason, i seem to be okay with that... just thinkin about her brings a smile to my face... a glow that even a blind man can see... and for once i can smile again... truthfully...